Today while on facebook I saw a good friend write about how her mother was headed into surgery... I did not think much of it. Later when I logged back on I saw that her mother had passed away. I felt like the wind had been knocked out of me. I started to cry and hurt because I could only imagine what it would be like to lose your mother.
Here I am hours later thinking and contemplating what pain she is experiencing and how radically different her life will be without her mother. I started to think about our Savior's love for us. If I hurt this bad for a friend of mine whom I have not seen in years how does He feel when we hurt? I know He loves us so much more than we are capable of loving each other. Today I am grateful for the plan of happiness. I am grateful for the sweet peace the gospel brings. It is in times like these that we truly see the blessing the gospel brings to us and the happiness we can find in it!
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
"Really, it's 2 AM could you please shut-up so I can sleep?"
Two nights ago I could not sleep. I know I am not the ONLY person that struggles with not sleeping. I hate it when I begin to drift off and one of my kids wakes me up! That happened twice and by 2:00 am I had chatty mind syndrome I also call CMS and was about to beat myself because "really its 2 am could you please shut-up so I can sleep?" I let my mind drift off and start to worry about all things I struggle with in life.
During testimony meeting this past week a girl got up and bore her testimony. Although I was struggling to keep my kids at bay I listened to her simple testimony about trials. She said that we are given trials that are unique to each of us, and those trials we are given are for us to overcome with the help of the Savior. Not for us to overcome by ourselves. We are given trials to help us draw nearer to Him.
So here is my problem: All my trials seem to pull me away
I know the Sunday school solution to this problem. I need the practical one!
Back to the story: So by 3 am I was pretty sure someone was breaking into my house to kill me (another problem I struggle with is I am ALWAYS sure someone wants to kill me, and every sound in the house at night is a burglar!) Too many episodes of Dateline, and Forensic files!
So in my sleep deprived state I came up with this... Someone is not going to kill me tonight. And I must be pretty special to my Heavenly Father. If my life was easier and I had fewer trials then I guess I think... I don't need to grow and develop into anything special because the Lord does not have much planned for me. But I know He does. I can feel it in my heart. I know I play an intricate role in this life, I know we all do!
During testimony meeting this past week a girl got up and bore her testimony. Although I was struggling to keep my kids at bay I listened to her simple testimony about trials. She said that we are given trials that are unique to each of us, and those trials we are given are for us to overcome with the help of the Savior. Not for us to overcome by ourselves. We are given trials to help us draw nearer to Him.
So here is my problem: All my trials seem to pull me away
I know the Sunday school solution to this problem. I need the practical one!
Back to the story: So by 3 am I was pretty sure someone was breaking into my house to kill me (another problem I struggle with is I am ALWAYS sure someone wants to kill me, and every sound in the house at night is a burglar!) Too many episodes of Dateline, and Forensic files!
So in my sleep deprived state I came up with this... Someone is not going to kill me tonight. And I must be pretty special to my Heavenly Father. If my life was easier and I had fewer trials then I guess I think... I don't need to grow and develop into anything special because the Lord does not have much planned for me. But I know He does. I can feel it in my heart. I know I play an intricate role in this life, I know we all do!
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